Still Waiting For My DAWN...........

12:00:00 PM

For days ... am sitting quiet ... waiting .... and waiting .... for the right time to come ... the time when all this would be over and finally i would see the new dawn ... which everybody talks about ... about which everbody brag around that we have been there done that ... its so beautiful and all other shit .... anyways don't think that it would be coming any soon !! as in the past 1 week i have cried, bleed, hurt my self, hurt others, finished all my contacts, done nasty things with people, helped some people too .... sacrificed everything i could, gave people some happiness ... but even after doing all this i am so restless so irritated !! so i don't know ... just am not able to sleep ... nor do anything ... even can't write anything ... have lots of work to do have lots of dreams to fill but am just sitting in my silent corner with IPOD in my hand !! and just listening songs all day .... and wat luck none of the song i have are happy ... all of the ones i love are making me remind each and everything of past ... everything has memories with it !! everything have a past behind it !! and most of them have the word angel in it ... lolz ... so thought would try to speak some rubbish ... and write crap which has no sense ... just to lighten my self up !! but i just remembered am pathetic in it too ... if i try to write crap it becomes more crappy ... whenever i write my start and the end just don't have any sense ... as ME !!

anyways may be thats life !! to do senseless things without any reason !! so waiting for my DAWN ... a new fresh breeze which would give me some peace ....

It has been days since i have slept ... and am tired ... i tried drugging my self to sleep but that doesn't even work !! It just makes my body sensless but still can't me sleep ....

may be i just whine alot ... guess don't have anything better to do !! so talk about as much as crap i can ....

hey at the end i feel a little better ... my shoulders are hurting less now ... i still have an headache and guess fever too but thats ok .... whining rocks i guess ... anyways thats me .... depress kommm :P .... and without even any reason ... without a reason which people can understand ... how can i tell them and make them understand what am going through right now :( ... don't have words to describe whats going on ... even if i make up some words i still can't make anyone understand whats my situation ... i need help i really want some help ... i want to tell everything to SOMEONE !!! only one !! which would lighten me up .... but the search still continues ... coz i still can't find
a comapanion that was so companianable as solitude ...................... :(

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