Stranger.......

3:44:00 PM

What a loss to spend that much time with somone, just to find out that she is a stranger.......


Hm ... isn`t life unfair ... no it ain't ... its just what we make it to be .... and we are not the ones to decide that its fair or not ... i knw am not going anwhere nor she is ... nor the things i am writing has any sense ... but as usual just blabbering it out ... to have a peace of mind for just a day or so until it starts to hurt again ....

yes it does hurt ... intensity does increase with time .... or may be it decreases ... don't know the answer to it .... but i know the fact that somethings do hurt ... it hurts when i remember how i spent my time talking to you and now u tell me that its not even possible to talk .... it hurts when i remember the nights when we use to just stay awake if we didn`t say each other love u and kissed each other good night .... and now u r dead sleep even when u know that am waiting for the good night .... and God knws there are millions of moments in my life which makes me realise and hurt me inside out .... and make me realise what you were for me ... what you still are ... and i have to admit it those memories hurt me in a really good way ... as every hour, minute, second i spent with you is so beautiful and would be rememebered by me forever .... everybody has ups and downs but still i think i can never forget the time which i spent with you coz it was so mesmerizing so pleasing it still gives a feeling ....

But althought after all the times perhaps it took u so long so long to say that u don't love me any more ? Yesterday u said to me that you love me .... but the love for you doesn't have any existence .... as i can never show you the love which i have for you !! this was amazing to hear coz it had so much pain in it ... and i felt it ... but how stupid can i be to enjoy and dance around that you love me and are suffering too .... or may be u just faking it up ....

I don't know what to belive and i am pretty sure you aren't having this problem coz my love is clear infront of you ... i don't lie to you what more i can give .... we spent so much time ... so much time together that it looks like forever .... and yet now i see you i just can't feel you ... i have lost the person i loved ... i just can see a stranger .... a stranger who has taken away the person whom i love the most ... but may be you were a stranger from the start i was the fool who couldn't see it in your eyes that your love was just materialistic ... your love was there for me till everything was fine ... and when times went wrong your love went away with it too .... it took me a long time to find out that the person i love was never mine she was just a stranger a face which i was not much aware off ... a face which u always hid from me ... MAY BE THAT WAS YOUR TRUE FACE ....

I always argued that to call the person whom u love the most a stranger isn't fair ... but today i belive that you definitly were a stranger ....so today i have to say that the person whom i love and somewart cried for is a stranger .... but i still hope that by saying all this it doesn't hurt you .... coz i would never want that i give pain to you ... or do anything which hurts you ... (well thats me for you) ....


After all the events which has passed in my life and i knw it isn`t the end i still have a long life ahead of me ... but still i guess i have to say this that till now i never found a comapanion that was so companianable as solitude ......................







(i guess i have to read what i wrote later lolz ... coz honestly don't knw what i wrote :p)

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  1. " we spent so much time ... so much time together that it looks like forever .... and yet now i see you i just can't feel you ... i have lost the person i loved i just can see a stranger .... "

    Haven't I influenced this? :p

    It'll be okay, cause after sometime, you'll realise that when they tell you they love you, or they miss you, it's not as much. It's never that much. Cause if it were, shud she be with you?
    Well, my case is different.
    But it sure does give you a sleep you can sleep

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  2. heheh no u haven`t influenced this ... may be some how yes u did ... but its just the scenario ... we both have some similarity in it ... so it came up ... waisey i wrote a poem called i cried for a stranger a month ago ... haven't uploaded as yet ... may be u'll like that... ;) ... as u love the word stranger so much :p ...


    sometime... i have been going through all this since september now ... and things have got just worst ... nothing is getting good ... but anyhow may be life doesn't knw how to turn back around. . .

    yeah i have already started to realise this but not too much .... these days am just remind my self a urdu shair and make my self peace ...

    the shair goes like this ...

    Unhein main yaad ata hun faqat fursat key lamhoun main "faraz"

    Magar yeh baat bhi sach hey unhein furst nahi milti ...



    lolz ;) ... yeah i knw she wud be never be there for me ... even in my darkest of times ... and she has proved this to me ... but i can't betray her by doing the same ...

    and yeah may be my case is different from yours .. but still its all about love ... isn't it ?

    and no it doesn't give me sleep ... it just gives restless nights ... waiting and thinking about her ... you knw passing the day is easy ... but nights.... ouch thats tough :s ....

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