جی چاہے تو

10:52:00 PM

Ji chahe to sheesha ban ja, Ji chahe paimana ban ja
Sheesha paimana kya ban’na, Mai ban ja maikhana ban ja

Mai bar kar, Maikhana ban kar, Masti ka afsana ban ja
Masti ka afsana bankar, Hasti se begaana ban ja
Hasti se begaana hona, Masti ka afsana ban’na
Is hone se, Is ban’ne se, Acha hai deewana ban ja

Deewana ban jane se bhi, Deewana hona achha hai
Deewana hone se achha, Khak-e-dar-e-janaana ban ja

Khak-e-dar-e-janana kya hai? Ahl-e-dil ki aankh ka surma
Shama ke dil ki thandak ban ja, Noor-e-dil-e-parwana ban ja

Seekh ‘Zaheen’ ke dil se jalna, Kahe ko har sham’ma par jalna
Apni aag mein khud jal jaye, Tu aisa parwana ban ja

Seekh ‘Zaheen’ ke dil se jalna, Seekh ‘Zaheen’ ke dil se jalna
Tu aisa parwana ban ja

I don't know how many of you can really understand the meaning of this... I am just in love with it, but i still can't go to its ultimate depth. This one is close to my heart. I listen to it while i am ready to face the world again. I take time to see things, beyond my perspective. Yes am stuborn, i stick to things which i want to. I seriously never know what i am talking. Hayeee Apni aag mein khud jal jaye, Tu aisa parwana ban ja....




خواب بھی شاید کانچ سے کمزور ھوتے ھیں
ھر روز بکھر جاتے ھیں فقت اک انکھ کھلنے سے



Mai nahi jant key mayri tamanna kya hai, mayri aarzoo kya hai, kya kashmakash hai mayri... janta houn tum mayri nahi... saans bhi ab mujh ko tayra bina layni hai. Per ek baat yeh bhi toh such hai key, is dil mai aur bhi gham hai muhabbat key siva. You were the person to whom i could confide too. For the pass couple of days i tried, i really tried to find another you, which i knew was never possible. But i did try to find a source, a vent a person to whom i could confide too, per i guess i couldn't at the end i'll just stop this war against me, i'll finally give my self rest because i know i have to fight with the whole world, fighting with my self won't help anymore. I have lost many people just because of you. I ain't going to loose them any more, i'll stand up, infact i am already on my feet and nothing can or will stop me, not even the emotions of missing you, or finding you in every person i see. Apni aag mai jo jal jaye, aisa paimana toh mai shayad kabhi naah ban sakoun per apnay aap ko us muqaam per pohncha loun, jo hum ney dekha tha shayad woh ek maqsad zaroor hai. Pata nahi this post is going way out of hands......

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The only thing i can say more is... Its been said through the centuries, and now i know its true. You never know what you've got until its taken from you. Its when that special person, to whom youd give you heart moves on in a desparate bid to take up a new start. And its you who is left hanging, feeling the hurt and pain. It is you that has to start over, and rebuild the walls again. You hear the songs that you shared, and emptiness rattles inside, but yet theres no-one around you,into whom you can confide; no-one that you trust enough, no-one that who could possibly care, and so your pain and worries, with no-one do you share. And sometimes you don't even know how to confide, because you think there is no point to it. So inside you the pain is growing,
and it hurts more everyday, you feel the sting of solitude, which pains more in everyway (i do love solitude sometimes). You disappear for a while, you mourn your sorrows away, and in time you find the knowing, you can smile thorugh another day.... Yes i can smile through another day. I don't deserve all this. I seriously don't....

*relaxes down, closes eyes and lets the music take control*

P.s this post isn't depressing, its just heart felt.....

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4 Comments

  1. i'm boooooooooooored..i have that paper to write..but i'm procrastinating..as always :D

    yeah urdu shayari is so not my thing. so that little thing went right over the top of my head. but i'm sure it was super meaningful and amazing.

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  2. Okay, I do get it, its awesome .. but I've a question :$
    what does 'Khak-e-dar-e-janaana' mean :$ ?

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  3. Wonderful Ubee hmm simply Brilliantly expressed. Sometimes hmm I read your writing and the thought in my mind is "Why are we so Hopeless" hehe u reflect my state of mind too :)

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  4. Hmmm

    so does anyone over here know what 'hak-e-dar-e-janaana' is ?

    Explain please :)

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